Mindless Self Indulgence

well world, I'm in pain....alot. Prob. one of the worst pains of my existing life that i can actuall recall. I hate being sick.............If anyone reads this and wants to make my day, gimme; a call and ask how i'm doing. I know that sounds pathetic but i feel pathetic right now. I'm sick and all the meds the doctors have me on are making really depressed but doing nothing for the pain. ON Monday I'll find out for sure if my limesdeasie in indeed active again, otherwise i will have to go backin for more tests and possible a trip to the city to a better hospital and better doctors. So, everyone, being thinking good happy thoughts for me, and, if you would be so inclined......PLEASE pray for me and pray for this pain to cease.

"I'm stubborn, irresitable, and just a bit above oppionated

 
This represents the POWER of females!

when you stay with me
YOU MAKE ME SMILE
when yiou laugh with me
YOU MAKE ME SMILE
when you talk to me
YOU MAKE ME SMILE
when you walk with me
YOU MAKE ME SMILE
when you …………
……………………..
……………………..
leave me
YOU MAKE ME DIE
when you laugh at me
YOU MAKE ME CRY
when you ignore me
YOU MAKE ME MAD
when you ditch me
YOU MAKE ME BAD
and finally when you ….
………………………….
………………………..
wanna get rid of me
You just Can’t Imagine That

 

Giggles and Laughs, Caturday is tomorrow!

 JUST TO INFORM THE PUBLIC ONCE AGAIN, THIS IS NOTALL OF MY JOURNAL, AND CERTANLY NOT ANYTHING OF RELEVENCE. SO, IF YOU WANT TO ACTUALLY KNOW ABOUT ME, BEFRIEND ME!

I sleep

for as much time as my life allows.

I slept, till my phone went off at 7:19 (yeah, i looked at the clock) I was like

"WHAT THE FUCK" 

and roll over to grumble and grab my phone. It said, tyler's mom's house. Now i was confused. 

I say "..................errrr,hello?"

"I love you, honey" 

I took a double take, he NEVER calls me in the morning. ......even, when i ask him......and especially when he knows i'm mad aat him cuse' the morining is not one of my priding moments.

"what?"
                  -my wonderful responce

"I love you honey."

it was about this time i woke up and actually responded,

"I love you Too honey"

CLICK. (he hung up!)

I think he hung up quickly so he didn't have to hear me say, But I'm still mad.
Which i am, well..........trying to be.

forget about me, about my problems for ONE day and focus on this!.....I duno what I'm going to do yet, but this is WRONG!

serbia is torturing people who can't help themselves, with mental disablilites. 

Click the link and see the horror
http://ap.google.com/article/ALeqM5gc6ipkYguB09oIbPsHEmUVgWnDJwD8SU420O0

To See an extesive report on these horrific acts follow this link.
http://www.mdri.org/projects/serbia/Serbia-rep-english.pdf

OHHHH, man...these people let the WRONG country find out of their malicous "treatments" and ways of "hinding" their disabled who just need some understanding and love.

forget about me, about my problems for ONE day and focus on this!.....I duno what I'm going to do yet, but this is WRONG!

serbia is torturing people who can't help themselves, with mental disablilites. 

Click the link and see the horror
http://ap.google.com/article/ALeqM5gc6ipkYguB09oIbPsHEmUVgWnDJwD8SU420O0

so ,I'm seeing a therapist.... i think it would be good. I can't really deal with my past with my mom and I don't really have support in a way that won't make someone else tired of hearing about it. I don't want to always bother Jo, she has enough to deal with in her own head, and Tyler.....well, Tyler told me last night he didn't want to hear it. AND, that  he's not going anywhere else with just me and my mom cuse' he doesn't want to deal with us, It was kinda a stab. 

THat hurt.

But I can deal with it, it's his choice. He's going to make his own decsions about stuff like that so i have just resolved to stop talking to him about it.

 Just To let the world know, All of my and I MEAN ALL OF MY real meaningful blogs are for friends only....If you want to see them, Ask to be a friend.......WHO knows I may let you into my head

giggles and laughs. So i'm in this class right, just quietly working on the puter...then, BAM....my phone goes off. BREAKS all the silence. it scared the SHIT out of me. it was jess. I duno what she wants, i'll call her back later. Isn't funny my phone never really goes off anymore so i forgot to put it on vibrate for class. HIlarious. I jumped like right out of my chair.

SO yeah, my last entry was cut short cuse' evans came in and need me....sorry. So, basically i'm exhausted and it's late so i think i am going to bed. BUT before i do so i will say, I had an odd night that i will explain in depth tomorrow, and NO, he still hasn't even so much as moved a finger to try and contact me which is causing me great distress. So, Yeah......I'm sleeping now.

Wow, Just figured out that was the first entry that acutally registered, B/c the first one must have gone on my deleted profile....HA!!! isn't that a great way to start a blog, with a blout of Frustration, well, at least i feel better now, sorta, a bit, some, well...you know what i mean, I hope